So annoyed.

Todays blog is going to be short.  I think… it depends on my rant.


I am so annoyed with myself.  Today started out with me feeling blah.  I just was not in the mood for anything, I don’t know… I was just not feelin it.  But… I had to keep my runstreak strong so I got on the treadmill with the hope of getting 3 miles in.  I say hope because every step was a struggle, I didn’t even want to exercise to begin with, I so wanted to stop and just sit and be lazy.  That is one of the cons of a treadmill, it is so easy to quit.  Somehow I gathered self-will to not only run 3 miles but 5. What?!  Don’t mind me for patting myself of the back.  


This is where it goes south.  I was doing so well all day and then 6 o’clock came along…. My husband wasn’t home yet and the kids were driving me nuts, so what was my solution… Eat.  Why?  Why? Why?  How dumb is that.  Right now I am so full I it hurts, and even more crabby than when I woke up.  Dumb.  I guess the one positive about all of this, this is the first time I have done this in awhile.  This used to be MO, so I guess it's good that this happens less and less frequently, but I am still upset that I did this.  AHHHHHHH!!!

A clean state starting now.  Not tomorrow, this does not mean I can gorge myself the rest of the night.