How did I get here

Not this again… I never wanted to be in this position again, overweight.  AHHHHHH!  Dang you Paula for putting yourself in this position!  

 

Okay, enough self-deprecation, that isn’t doing anyone any good.  

 

Okay, back to the topic at hand.  How did I get here?  Well, I don’t want to point fingers but, my daughter did it.  I had to go and get pregnant again and what I have learned about myself is that I am not a good pregnant person.  I gained 55 pounds and guess how much of that was baby…? I was in such a good place before I was pregnant, I was happy with my weight and how my body looked and was physically active while making smart food choices.  That all went down the drain, hard.  Eating ice cream every night seemed like a good idea and if I could do that and sit on my butt even better.  

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12 weeks pregnant

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My baby is 9 months old...

Being pregnant is hard and I am not using that as an excuse, there are a lot of women out there that make healthy choices throughout their pregnancy. I just was not one of them.  So I know find myself in the position that I have habits to fix and pounds to lose.  Losing weight is not the hard part.  Millions of people all over the world have done it, and have done it several times over.  The hard part is keeping it off.  The struggle is creating new habits and continually feeding these habits so they thrive.  Maintaining weight loss is a lifestyle, it is that easy and that hard.  (just a quick side note, as we speak I want to go into the kitchen and just go nuts!  I only have 45 min before my husband gets home and we can have supper.  I can wait. (how many times do I have to say that to myself before its true…))

 

Here we go again.

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                                                        Worth it